Emotional Turmoil and Eating

I'm not going to lie - today was a rough day for me because I am pretty upset about my relationship ending, but I still tried to do well with my eating.  I focused on preparing my meals in advance, and even gave myself a bit of a cheat meal this evening when I went to a social event.  I didn't go crazy there, and I used a small plate to control my portions, and in general it was just fine.  I had three small portions of different types of pasta, some white bread, and drank water.  Although I would have preferred a bit more protein, it wasn't the worst meal.  Plus, I also made sure that I worked out afterwards (leg night), so I didn't feel too terrible about a little extra starch and sugar prior to that work-out - I needed that fuel for the sweat-fest that I put myself through.

It was funny how hard it was for me to actually let myself go eat, and makes me realize that I do have some issues with moderation.  I have little difficulty staying on top of things exactly or going way off the diet, but it is the days of moderation or meals out that I have trouble with.  It is hard for me to say that one drink is okay, or one piece of cake, especially when I am so close to reaching my goals, but I am trying to let my mind ease a bit.  It is difficult to strike a balance because I am trying to be very aware of emotional eating, while at the same not letting controlling my diet fool me into thinking I am in control of my life in general.  The emotional turmoil definitely takes a toll.

It is also fairly amazing how well clothes that I have not worn in years fit - I keep trying on things or putting on clothes that either haven't fit for a while, or things that I have been wearing all the time, and I find myself shocked with both.  The clothes that I haven't been able to wear are suddenly perfect, and everything that I have been wearing for the last year is suddenly too large.  I have to say - I absolutely love it!

Another day down, and hopefully I'm a little closer to my goal.  No cardio this morning because of the leg workout tonight, but I have to say that it is going to be a tough session tomorrow after leg day.